Amanda Knox considered suicide in jail, afraid she’d miss her chance to have kids
Amanda Knox contemplated suicide guiding bars about fears she would not get out in time to get pregnant and have a child of her own.
Knox — who spent 4 decades in prison just after staying wrongfully convicted of the murder of Brit student Meredith Kercher — recalled her cheapest times in an Italian jail mobile on the “Infertile AF” podcast.
“The loneliness of acknowledging that I was not gonna share my lifestyle with a person I liked and I was not likely to have youngsters deeply, deeply impacted me,” Knox said. “And I tried using to consider, ‘If which is not genuine any more, how do I make my lifestyle really worth living?’”
The 34-year-aged, who introduced the start of her daughter, Eureka Muse, in October, extra: “What I lost was not just time and youth and human probable, but also there was the prospect of a loved ones.
“And it is misplaced for any girl who is sentenced to lose her childbearing many years to jail. I needed to level out that there is a unique cost that the legal justice procedure does not really consider into consideration, when we are sentencing ladies for crimes, and that we really should likely be imagining about that,” she advised podcast host Ali Prato.
Knox also disclosed how she has struck up a friendship with Monica Lewinsky. “I contemplate her a good friend, and she’s been through hell,” she mentioned. “She’s been by way of hell … she doesn’t have household, doesn’t have small children however.”
The embrace of Lewinsky came about due to the fact, Knox mentioned, “That’s variety of my schtick. I always try to hook up with persons … primarily females, who conclusion up becoming vilified and cartoon cutouts for our … schadenfreude enjoyment written content.”
Knox informed Moments Radio this week that she views the public desire in convicted intercourse trafficker Ghislaine Maxwell’s scenario as an “prospect to vilify a lady for sex crimes.“
She added: “Maxwell was naturally guilty of these terrible crimes and should be held accountable for her crimes. But also, we should really be thorough and mindful as a modern society when we have this kind of raging fascination in some scenarios around other individuals.”
Now married to author and poet Christopher Robinson, Knox claimed she was not ready for her very own conviction, to the issue that her relatives had a airplane ticket all set for her pursuing the 2009 trial.
But as she confronted the prospect of a long time guiding bars, Knox claimed: “I went back into my prison cell and I had to wholly reframe this working experience that was going on to me. I had been processing this whole detail, imagining, ‘This is a short term issue. This is not my life.’
“And I experienced this, like, deep, deep visceral unhappy realization that, ‘Oh no, this is my everyday living. And my lifestyle is not what I thought it was going to be. And not only am I not gonna go house, I’m not gonna have a vocation, I’m not gonna have a relatives.’”
Kercher’s physique was discovered in the condominium she shared with Knox in Perugia, Italy, in November 2007. The 21-yr-old’s throat had been slashed.
Knox and her then-boyfriend, Raffaele Sollecito, along with Rudy Guede, had been formally billed and convicted, but Knox and Sollecito’s convictions ended up overturned in 2015.
Knox admitted on the podcast that it is “mind-boggling” that she managed to discover her spouse, introducing: “I stumbled upon a human being who, as an alternative of, like, having to pay notice to correct crime and remaining on the up and up with all these ridiculous stories that are out there … he’s a poetry man.”
Guede, who was convicted of raping and killing Kercher, put in 13 many years in jail ahead of an early release in November. He maintains his innocence, alleging that Knox and Sollecito “inflict[ed] the stab wounds” to Kercher. He explained to the Sunlight in November: “I know the truth and [Knox] knows the reality.”
